Q&A: I Think I May Have Been Molested as a Child and Cannot Remember?
Question by Jaylin: i think i may have been molested as a child and cannot remember?
i was just wondering if others could give me some feedback or opinions on what i am going to describe… i remember when i was little my mother telling me that no one was aloud to see or touch my privates except her or my grandmother (like if i had a rash or something) and to never let anyone else–and if they told me my mom said it was ok i still wasnt aloud to let them..which brings me to my first thought…was my mother molested by a family member when she was a child and this is why she is telling me this? or was it just for my protection–like “if you walk away from me at the store, a man will take you and you’ll never see mummy again”..which she also said to me to scare me.. one of the other things i remember– i had to be atleast 3-5 years old–and i had this big doll house and i could close myself in it–i remember taking my ken doll from barbies–i pulled down my pants in the enclosed doll house and put his hand on my privates..did i do this bc my mother told me not to let anyone touch my privates or was i doing it bc someone was touching me innapropriately?? and also i dont remember if that occured before or after she said this to me.. and why did i take a ken doll and do it and not a barbie or a girl doll? i dont remember if i said anything while i was doing that or anything else really bc it was so long ago–the other thing that i feel was a little strange–is that my mothers uncle lived with us on and off alot and hes an alcoholic. i remember we used to play “house” i called him “husband” and he called me “wife” i can remember always sitting on his lap facing him and hed run his hands up and down my sides (like under my armpits down my sides) and i remember something about a white tank top i was wearing for some reason but cant figure out why this shirt is sticking out as significant. i would hate to accuse my uncle of something bad especially if he did not do anything wrong–in retrospect i can still see the creepy weird way he looked at me when hed be rubbing me–every now and again when i may see him and he is drunk–he gets that same creepy look in his eyes. but–i wondered had he molested my mom–would she have let my sister stay with my grandma while he was also spending the night?? it is a small efficiency–could she have thought nothing would happen because my grandma would obviously know-and my sister is 10 so she knows hed be doing something bad to her.. i mean if my mom had this happen to her–would she have allowed me to be around him as a child?? i have heard stories and things that children who touch their genitals with dolls or stuffed animals could be sexually abused–that is not normal–and as a child you think your pee pee is just to go potty–u dont know about sex yet– and also when i was about ten i remember playing cops n robbers with a lil girl down the street and i loved when shed handcuff me and throw me down on the bed for some reason (as weird as that sounds)–my mother told me the basics of birds n bees when i was around 8-10– even though i have dramatically changed my life and surrendered to God–in the past i have been very permiscuous, losing my virginity at age 12. i was physically and emotionally abused as a child–my entire childhood was extremely disfunctional–my bio. father was not in the picture and my mother skipped town when i was 12 where i bounced from relative to relative. i am just wondering if there is sexual abuse that i have repressed or simply cannot remember bc of my age–but i feel like i may have been due to the certain things i do indeed remember.. id like to know–however knowing would not change my feelings of myself and my worth now–its just bothering me why ive felt that i was molested for the past couple years now.. what do you think based on this info? thank u for ur time guys!
Best answer:
Answer by chad w
u should talk to a shrink
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